THINGS I NEVER KNEW WHEN I WAS YOU

DEAR YOU,
I can never tell you how much I love you. It has been a long time since I have met you. In exact 10 years. A little by little you faded away from my memory. You were too eager to be me. You never realized that in the process you are forgetting yourself. Today when I counted the 21st eternity of my life, the shards of silence reminisced the days of glory when we were one. You and I collectively could conquer our entire little world. Happiness was not optional. It was inevitable for the lack of choice. You may remember the day grandma died, almost a year ago. We did not understand death then. We did not understand the scrupulous details of the volatility of life. Not that you still understand, not had I a choice would want you to understand. The point is we never knew grief. The heart only shattered when we were denied a toy and instantly mended from a frozen dessert. I wish those times would have been eternal. I wish the hourglass would have frozen. Anyways this is not for you to understand yet. What you have to understand is the joy of being you. How hard you try to imagine that there would be no tomorrow, after every night of sleep a new dawn would await you with promises of even beautiful days ahead. The myriad fantasies you weave around your world which you want to realize would knock your footsteps when the right time comes. Conformity is not what I am asking from you. Non-conformity to even non-conformity makes you the free soul that even today I have not managed to lose. All I ask from you is to lose the desperation for the life and future as if you have to catch the last plane out of zombie land.
I certainly sound preachy. A lot of people must have told you this but trust me, I know you well, too well. In spite of this we both know that your death is inevitable. What pains the most is that for my survival and for my existence you have to burn down to ashes. The resurrection from there would lose all its meaning if you don’t do what you have done. All I want is the unity of souls that existed then. I want you to be me but not by making yourself innocuous victim of change, for the sake of it.
Again I know that by no means this letter may reach you, not as of now. I am preparing the package for the time it would be possible to deliver. The time when we could exist in time. Then we will meet in eternity. Together we would hold hands and walk down the paths of the stars effervescent with the joy of our unity. We will happily glide to the moon and talk about how we miss each other. The time would come when infinity would be one. All the distances would be gauged and all the boundaries shattered and I would see you again.
Love…….
FROM
‘’ME’’